It`s been another one of those weeks,where you wish you could sleep & never wake up.
I`am tired of pretending to be happy,when I`am not,sick of people using & abusing me.
My head hurts,I feel sick to the stomach,can`t sleep....my mind is like a movie projector that never stops,thoughts....bad thoughts,people who hurt me................it`s never ending.
I`am forever disapointed with life,I try hard to make things right,but the harder I try the worse things seem to get.
I love my children,& they keep me going,but I often wonder if I`am the best person for them to be around,I smile for them but hurt deeply inside.
I`ve lost my get up and go,my bubbley personality,once upon a time I used to laugh until I cried,but now life seems to be all about sadness & tears.
I don`t feel strong anymore,life is a bitch,hate feeling like this.
I wonder what my next life path will bring.
I hear Heaven is a nice place & I know alot of my loved ones would love to see me.....I truly miss my Son Brendan & my beautiful Nanna Grace.
I don`t care about wishing my life away, another birthday will come & go.....then I become older & closer to leaving this shit place could Earth!
Oh Suse, mate I wish I could be there and give you a huge huge cuddle. I saw your status this morning and was going to respond when Paige gave me a spare moment. I don't know what to say to make you feel any better, just know that I love ya guts. I am sorry that you have friends who use and abuse you. How anyone could do that to you is just beyond me. You are such a beautiful soul. Remember you know where I am if you need to talk. Even if you want to call to talk I am here ok? Don't feel like you have to feel shitty in silence. HUGS xox
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I hate knowing you're feeling like this at the moment hun. You're a brilliant person who definitely deserves much love & laughter in their life. I hope the clouds part & the sun shines brightly for you real soon. In the mean time, please know I am just a phonecall away xx
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